The Wind by The Fray

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I've been listening to The Fray for a couple of years now. They're music is very easy for me to relate to and I like that. If I can't make some kind of a connection to a song or artist the I usually won't like it, or I get sick of it quickly. I just saw them live last week and I have to say it was probably the best concert I've ever been too. Seeing them perform you can tell they are very passionate about their music. They interacted with the crowd too, which I love to see. It tells me that they appreciate their fans.

I've find myself going back to this song since the concert. Here are the lyrics:

The Wind from The Fray

Oh my God, think I’m lost at sea

The silent waves are my company

And I lost the land between the sky it seems

And wondering, “Will the wind ever come free?”

Yeah

Cause I don’t know, I don’t know where I am

Can yu tell me, will I break or will I bend

Will the wind ever come again

Ooh, ooh

I feel the sun coming out, rising from the east

And I see the empire, falling to her knees

And I lost the land between her and me

My troubles are gone if the wind ever comes free

Yeah

Cause I don’t know, I don’t know where I am

Can you tell me, will I break or will I bend

Will the wind ever come

You left me on the shoreline

You will stand and bare

But you, I’ll find you waiting

You were waiting for me, waiting for me

Tried to kiss the emptiness

Lost the line between sky and sea

I feel the sun coming up, coming up, coming up, coming up

But I don’t know, I don’t know where I am

I will break or I will bend

Will the wind ever come again?

This reminds me of the times in my life when I've felt lost. There haven't been many of them and its always involved the loss of someone I loved. Not always a loss because of death, but those were the worst times. I don't talk about it much but my first love died and a part of me went with him. He will always have a place in my heart and I still miss him.

After something like that happens you really do feel lost. I would find myself walking through a store and I'd go from one end to the other but not remembering anything in between. For a long time I literally didn't know what to do. I wondered if anything would ever be able to get me out. And I wondered if I would ever feel that way about another person.

Eventually I did find my way back and learned that love is not always a once in a lifetime thing. I'll always carry around the pain of that loss, and of all the others, but I am better for having known those people and sharing my life with theirs. I wouldn't trade the pain of losing them if it meant that I never knew them.

I don't know what happens we die, but I hope that whatever it is I get to see Warren, Courtney, Paul, Eva, Jenn, Ginger, Shawn, Sandy, Gess, Mel, Tom, Ted, my granny, and grandpa again.

Sorry if this post is depressing. Its not meant to be. I'm feeling reflective right now.